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For the past several months, I had my career path mapped out in a way that felt logical, impressive, and honestly… expected. I was all in on pursuing a role at a large agency. It checked every box on paper—big-name clients, fast-paced work, strong resume value, and the kind of opportunity people tell you not to pass up. I spent time preparing, networking, and fully buying into the idea that this was the direction I should go.

But somewhere along the way, something felt off.

At first, I ignored it. I told myself it was just nerves or uncertainty. That’s normal when you’re stepping into something big, right? But the more I learned about the day-to-day reality of agency life—the pace, the expectations, the lifestyle—the more I realized I wasn’t feeling excited. I wasn’t energized. I wasn’t even curious. I was just… going through the motions.

That was the turning point.

I started asking myself a simple question: Why am I doing this if I’m not passionate about it? And I didn’t have a good answer. It wasn’t about the prestige. It wasn’t about the paycheck. It wasn’t about the title. It felt like I was chasing something because it sounded good, not because it actually meant something to me.

So I made a decision that, honestly, scared me—I backed out of the internship candidacy.

Walking away from something that looks “perfect” from the outside isn’t easy. There’s a lot of pressure to follow through, especially when you’ve already invested time and energy into it. But I knew staying on that path would’ve been worse. It would’ve meant forcing myself into a career direction that didn’t feel aligned with who I am or what I enjoy.

And that’s when I started rediscovering something I had pushed to the side—sports photography.

There’s something about live sports that you can’t replicate anywhere else. The energy, the unpredictability, the emotion—it’s real, it’s raw, and it happens in a split second. You either capture it or you miss it. That pressure is what makes it exciting. It’s what makes me feel alive.

I’ve had the opportunity to shoot live events before, including capturing moments from a match featuring Messi. Experiences like that stick with you. Not just because of who’s on the field, but because of what it feels like to be there—on the sidelines, in the moment, telling a story through your lens while everything unfolds around you.

That’s the kind of work that doesn’t feel like work to me.

It made me realize that I don’t just enjoy photography—I thrive in environments where things are happening in real time. Where there’s movement, emotion, and a story that needs to be told instantly. I’m not someone who wants to sit behind a desk all day thinking about content. I want to be out there creating it as it happens.

Right now, I’m in a phase of exploring what that looks like professionally. I’m connecting with people in the industry, building relationships, and putting myself in positions where I can learn and grow. I understand it’s a competitive field—maybe even more competitive than agency work—but this time, it feels different. It feels worth it.

Because now, I’m not chasing something just because it looks good.

I’m chasing something because it feels right.

And I think that’s an important realization, especially at this stage in my life. It’s easy to get caught up in what you’re supposed to do. The internships you’re supposed to take, the careers you’re supposed to want, the paths that seem the most secure. But if there’s no passion behind it, it’s not sustainable.

Walking away from the agency path didn’t set me back—it redirected me.

I’m still figuring things out. I don’t have every answer, and I don’t know exactly where this path will lead. But I do know this: I’d rather take a chance on something I genuinely care about than commit to something that never felt right in the first place.

And right now, being behind a camera at a live event—that’s where I know I’m meant to be.